On Parenting and police

So Moriyah is the worst infant of all my kids. Isaac was a quick second. followed by Hannah and then Andrew. This ranking is according to sleep. Moriyah is nearly eight months old and still doesn't sleep through the night. She has a hand ful of times slept most of the night. This means that it has been over two years since I regularly got to sleep at night.

Some nights are better than others. Moriyah is the most clingly of all my kids. she screams if she sees me and I do not pick her up immediately. It is such a blood curdling scream that one day our neighbor poked her head out to see if she was ok. I had just put her down to help hannah with something. I was right there. She was fine.

If I am holding Moriyah and I don't feed her when she thinks that I should, which is every two to three hours, she begins to claw at me and even tries to rip the neckline of my shirt off. It has gotten so i can hardly rock her to sleep. She just screams because I am not feeding her. I can't tell you just how frustrating this is.

We have tried things that have worked in the past to get our dear children to sleep through the night. We moved moriyahs bed down stairs so that she could cry. When we did this with andrew it took all of a week and he was sleeping like the best of them. Moriyahs bed was in the living room for several months. We gave up. No amount of letting her cry it out seemed to help her sleep. Maybe I have been too inconsistent with her. I have no idea. I'm just exhausted and frustrated and nearing the end of my sanity.

It was 95 degrees today. Naturally everyone has their windows open. It gets really cool at night so we put our box fan in our window before we went to bed. The fan was on low. It creates this great white noise as well. Seems to help me sleep, aparently too well. At 3:30 I heard Moriyah and got up and got her. She was sitting up in her bed, which is unusual. I thought that she must have been crying longer than i heard her. Hannah was awake too, the girls share a room now. I said good night to hannah and took moriyah in my room. I was feeding moriyah when i heard our door bell ring. then a series of loud bangs on the door. I was trying to rouse adam to answer. next thing i know i see a flash light and an officer walking through my hallway. He went into each of the kids rooms then left. Aparently one of our neighbors called the police because moriyah was crying.

Thank you oh wonderful neighbors for calling the police for my crying infant. I hope you are so diligent in your vigilence for child abuse when it comes to actual abuse. I am so frustrated and tired and now angry. I am the only parent who ever goes outside with my kids. In fact all the kids in our neighborhood end up in our driveway to play with adam and i. I could tell you the names of all the kids in our neighborhood and what is happening in their lives. I feel like i've been parenting about 10 kids in the last two weeks. But thanks again wonderful neighbors for noticing my daughters crying. I am never going to sleep at night. How will moriyah ever learn if i can't even let her cry once in a while? I bet someone just wanted her to be quiet so they could get back to sleep. Jerks.